Ever Wanted

All I ever wanted was

For a pair of hands

To hold me when I am stranded.

For a pair of eyes

To look into my eyes

To assure me everything was going to be nice.

For a pair of ears

To hear my tears

When the world turned deaf ears.

For a pair of feet

To stand with my feat

When others stood away from it.

For a voice

 To tell me I’m there for you

Whenever I’m clouded by the blue.

All I ever wanted was

For a man to love me

For what I wanna be.

For a warm lips

To awaken me

When I die within me.

For a heart

To beat with mine

With every step of mine.

All I ever wanted was

For Two souls with one heart

But alas that is what is hard to find.

bee sting

It was a beautiful morning. My room filled with sunlight. Everything was bright and the air smelled fresh of grass and daisies. I slowly got out of my bed feeling something was not right. I got ready yet the thought kept coming inside my head that something is bound to happen. I left home for office. Nothing happened yet. I got into my office cab. As we drove my instinct grew stronger and stronger. We stopped at a particular place to pick my fellow colleague. As we waited my attention suddenly drew to a black crawly thing on my lap. Before I could throw it out it gave me a quick sting on my elbow leaving a red sting mark. I managed to throw it outside. I started to think. Whatever the insect did was in its self defense. It did not know the nature of its attacker or my case- the non harming passenger.All it wanted was to escape alive and all it could give me was a quick sting that left a deep mark.
I started thinking whether this was applicable to us human beings too. Do we try to escape situations by giving a sting to others without actually realizing the nature of threat others posses? Thankfully my sting can be treated but what about the sting that one human being leaves on another?

PS: my sting became a small bump but thanks to natural med like turmeric its wearing off.

Lenka Fever

It's Lenka Fever in the air for me. Having heard for the first time when windows 8 ad came up all I thought was - another regular song. But it was only after I heard it for next several days did I pay attention to its lyrics. I tried to figure out the artist name or whatever I could possibly remember of the song. Damn it!!! I forgot the ad for which it was being used. Was it a tab or a smart phone of some kind. There I lost it. Nothing was coming to my mind. So had to let go as usual. Days passed as usual. I was doing the dishes when suddenly I heard the familiar music play in the background. I dropped whatever I was doing and rushed to get a glimpse of the video. Lenka it was.... song name -"Everything at once"..... Once I got hold of the song in my hands I haven't put it down yet... My other favorite - "Roll with the punches". There is something in her voice that makes me want to listen to her again and again. Lyrics are so simple yet they pour out like milk and honey.... Lenka does have magic in her voice.

Diwali Dying out

During my childhood Diwali was all about crackers, lights, family members coming together celebrating Diwali in pomp and splendor. Diwali lasted up to four days. one could hear an occasional cracker burst here and there days before the actual day of festival. There was a delicious aroma of food in the air. Sweets being prepared at various house,s children wearing new dresses and houses and surroundings being cleaned and garbage being burned was a common sight. This year things have change drastically. There is no more sound of crackers in the air.The skies are no longer filled with bright colorful rocket bursts. There is hardly any sense of celebration the air. People these days rather prefer everything in budget so Diwali is no longer Diwali it is called budget Diwali. I was surprised to see people no longer believed in celebrating the festival at home. They did rather spend the time watching movies at home or at cinema halls or have food outside with family. Our culture, our traditions are declining slowly without us realizing it. The day is nor far away when one would play a video Of Diwali on DVD to show one's kids what Diwali was all about...

Assuring assurance

An incident that happened a couple of days back is still affecting me. I took the wrong decision at the wrong time and the result was pure insult and nonsense. I thought about what I had done and how I could have changed it all with one slight change in decision. i don't regret my action. Initially I was little worried, guilt ridden one can. I was seeking an answer from someone who could tell me whether I was wrong or not. I wanted a peace of mind before I went to bed that. I kept twisting and turning in bed. Finally I got up, switched on my laptop, connected my internet dongle and popped up my messenger. By sheer coincidence my most trusted partner in crime was online. I confided to the person about my situation and the kaleidoscope of emotions passing through me. Ten minutes of conversation and I was suddenly out of the blue. I started feeling better and brighter. Something inside me lit up. I smiled. I thanked my partner for those ten precious minutes which changed my day to a better one. I suddenly realized that we human beings are always good at reassuring someone else but not not so good at reassuring oneself. That's the way we are I suppose.