The Way Home

I packed a little bag of mine

With everything that was fine

I wanted to look in my best

How I felt light in my chest

Oh home was my destination

After a long summer vacation

I stepped out to breathe the air

Eyes welled up dropped  a tear

Heart was swelled head held high

If only I had a pair of wings to fly

Time ticked by in thoughts I lost

Sweet voices soon began to frost
Then I realized of the truth I hid

Of the blood and murder I did

Memories came hitting back at me

Stinging me like a swarm of bee

Not everything was forgotten

Nor was everyone forgiven

Then suddenly I realized 

Where was home after all

Was it where my loved ones 

no longer waited for me with open arms?

For strangers they had become

Feelings for me had long gone numb

How I wanted to shout at them

Then I stopped, for home was not where it stood

Home was way back with strangers 

Who had become my loved ones

Who welcomed me back with open arms

Alter Ego

I have learned to live without you

after what you made me go through

It was a pain I don't want to remember

Which happened in a cold November

Leave me alone and begone

To you I am no longer drawn

 I have learned to live without you

after what you made me go through

I followed you like your slave

When I was afraid to be brave

You did not let me be myself

You think only about yourself

All you see is you in the mirror

I could not come any nearer

Leave me alone and begone

To you I am no longer drawn

Tried to be there for you all the time

You never had enough of your time

I still stood by smiling like a clown

All you have done is let me down

I have learned to live without you

after what you made me go through

All you did was give me tears

In all this long passed years

What started has come to an end

You were never a very good friend

Understand this very well

I don't care how you dwell

Leave me alone and begone

To you I am no longer drawn

You no longer make my heart swell

No longer I am bound to you by any magic spell

I am not the poor little girl you met

Who you treated like your pet

Leave me alone and begone

To you I am no longer drawn

 I have learned to live without you

after what you made me go through

Never come back asking for forgiveness

After turning my life into such a horrible mess

No is the only answer you can best guess

Leave me alone and begone

To you I am no longer drawn

Leave her alone...

I don't know when she was born

Mother of all evil as she is known

Weak be wary for she can make you do wrong

for she doesn't go for the strong

They kill for her they steal for her

 leaving all space for them to err

For how she controls your actions

she tears you inside out into several fractions

Noticed how you change around her

for she has made your thoughts to blur

How much more does she need to fill inside you

she is chewing you right through you

Find a way to kill her pretty soon

before she casts a spell in rune

Don't let her seeds grow inside of you

Go save yourself take my clue

They kill for her they steal for her

 leaving all space for them to err

For how she controls your actions

Tearing you from inside out into several fractions

Now you have destroyed her

things are back where they were

Now don't you call her back

For jealousy is best left off the track

Beauty Personified...

How he smiles down at me from high above

Beauty is all in he now

I catch your face every now & then

When you are no longer bound by them

How you shine among other men

you are truly the gentleman

How you change yourself  from time to time

only to charm more every time

Follows me all night when alone

wherever I go

Showing me the path

 a true company for the lone you are

I see a little of you in every day

most at night while searching my way

You fill my room

fill my heart when I am gloom

and what more can I say

Your beauty is admired greatly by many

promising a piece of you to his lover 

rather than his  money

How you have changed 

in all these years

Are all just lies to my ears

You are a charmer they say

Inspired you have many

Many more to come you will

You are wonderful in white

Red when you are puts away the light

you are the way you are

round white with pits and patch

Oh beauty personified 

I like you most in your crescent light

Someone like you...

I want to forget the day I let you go

to be with someone

to become someone else's

 I cried a lot wanting you back

Alas there was no way you could turn back

Oh I cannot change

what is done is done for your sake

I could just die then & there

Oh boy where could I run

It is your wedding day

you are with someone else

how I try to be happy for you both

In your little growth

Will I ever find someone like you

for no one can replace you

This isn't what I wished for

If only you were there when I open my door

I fell in love & was blind

How the time breaks what it binds

Till yesterday you were with me

now you are with someone else away from me

 I cried a lot wanting you back

Alas there was no way you could turn back

Oh I cannot change

what is done is done for your sake

Everything between us is just a memory now

happy days have long passed

I see the future

just me without you

How am I gonna be just me

When it used to be you, me and we

Will I ever find someone like you

I will find someone like you

But I won't let him go

This time I will let him know

Uncontrollable One....

He finds me no matter where I go

He always manages to give a blow

I tried to keep him away from me

but he always manages to find me

Tried to beat him in his every play

After all he is one of the life's way

His presence is a pain to the heart

Now I don't know where do I start

No matter what I feed him within

His hunger is never satiated within

I try to hold him calm deep inside 

Somehow breaks his way outside

Felt the blood rush through my skin

How I wanted to break a few things

Eyes well up, tears are flowing down

If only tears made a river to drown

Words are bitter and voices all dark

Had I snapped and made a big mark

If only I had took control of it before

Then things would not have been sore

For great are those who control temper

That is something I shall live to remember

ROMAN NUMERALS 1 TO 30

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Queen of the night....

Its half past twelve and the moon is full

I peep through my window & feel the pull

I see her walking the lane draped in white

She walks effortlessly the queen of the night

Many men may follow her never to return

What a hard lesson they forget to learn

Beauty is all that she is a spirit gone wild

How they follow her innocent like a child

She makes you want her again and again

Promising to take away forever your pain

I see her walking the lane draped in white

She walks effortlessly the queen of the night

She lures them to the shadows of the hour

Finishing off one after the other by the hour

Her long black tresses rise and fall in the air

She looked more beautiful than ever I swear

Time is up for her as night dissolves into day

She hurries to the nearest tree where she lay

Waiting for the night to capture another prey

She smiles again thinking how they all betray

Love Lost & Found

I found you after a very long time
Love was never such a big crime
This time I am not gonna lose you
For I know what I am going to do
I made a choice for the both of us
And it turned out to be such a mess
I found you in here & everywhere
I mentioned you in all my lil prayer
I wanna strangle them to their death
For they made me hold my breath
All this time you were kept hidden
For you were called the forbidden
How I had to break the hard rules
They me look like a complete fool
Found it hard to forget you so soon
All it gave me was a bloody swoon
He gave me a second chance at you
Now I am confused as who is who
I am ready to seek you yet again
This time I want to forget the pain
So I am going to try it once again
I don't know who is going to gain
Here I am again where I stood
But alas I have lost you for good
Hopefully we meet again someday
For I know love is no child's play
Why did I find you If I was to lose
Who else but you alone can I choose

Left out....

It ain't fun when you're the left out one

Trust me I know it better than anyone

Been there, seen it and damn I felt it

All it does it pull down your own spirit

Thought about moving towards the door

Not once but a thousand times and more

Seen nobody who could hold my hand

It was very much nothing- like I planned

Everyone was with someone or the other

How I wished to run away to my  mother

Standing like a poppy in a paddy field

I wish I could hide under some shield

Oh they make me cry they make me sigh

All I could do is to ask myself to just lie

I am afraid of being alone in a crowd

Like the sun hidden by the dark cloud

You may try & take the light out of my life

For you cut me open by and by like a knife

I wish to breakout and speak openly alike

I realize I am not the one holding the mike

Fight is between your words & my thoughts 

I try not to lose for you are calling the shots

I ain't gonna give up now never or ever

I shall change to be better or best forever

Either I shall become the best in the lot

Or I shall stand alone & be most sought

It ain't fun when you're the left out one

Trust me I know it better than anyone

I ain't gonna runaway this time from you

Because this time you will know my view

Waiting for you...

You came  through the open window silently like a thief
On a cold rain-less night and you washed away my grief

You became my regular visitor every night since then
I eagerly sit up at nights thinking you will come when

Your one cold touch is enough to give me the chill
I feel like I am on roller coaster going down the hill

But there is something about the place you come from
Because you smell of  flowers that make me go numb

If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have those beautiful sweep
Oh how with your gentleness  you lull me to sleep

How the room feels empty and dull in your absence
But I feel full and lively in your mere presence

Nowadays I am missing you greatly in these hot nights
Oh cold winds of the night I keep waiting for you every night...

The hunter...

The hunter, a silent, visibly scarred man stood staring at his prey, the prey being a sixty nine year old male. He could taste the fear emanating from the old man’s eyes. He waited till it was completely consumed in its own fear. The time had come. He drew his sword back. The prey begged, “Please don’t kill me. You are a God and Gods don’t kill.”

“I am God, just not the regular type,” replied the hunter. And down came his sword. “May your soul rest in hell,” and the hunter left leaving the prey to rot.